Letha Wilson, Easter Appalachian Trail, 2010. C-print, paper, and paint. Courtesy of the artist.
I have always loved a village green, a commons.
I do not love a commodity,
until I’ve owned the shit out of it,
and we are twin depleted.
If learning is changing—
if ecology is adaptive and it’s we who are stuck in our think-holes—
then fuck me so hard I spot pale pink blood.
Alter me a little.
My body is a commons.
You can pleasure yourself through me
like a haunted house at a theme park.
On the other end, it’ll be you all shaky.
I’m not animatronic, a barely clicking swamp.
I’m mowed but still lush, a thoroughfare for glad tidings.
What I am really after is connection.
The Girl Dropped into the Homespace
|green-eyed fuckers ||but the wolf said ||you are sweet |
|I said I am not ||but searched for the blond boy ||to kiss |
|all over ||as he scratched his pink skin ||to bleeding |
|I said don’t scratch ||lovey ||but your beautiful arms |
|not thinking ||of soldiers then ||or “the gun licensed in Maine” |
|I went looking ||for the wolf ||to bite through my juice |
|my white cotton shirt ||smelled of sand and coconut ||I took off |
|all my clothes ||over the foul river ||holes |
|in every shoe ||every loose motherly heart ||I said |
|I am heartsick ||but with how satisfied ||and hopeful |
I Do Not Want to Fuck You Captain America
The difference between you and me, Fanboy, (and perhaps between the Masculine and the Feminine if you want to talk about it that way) is that I don’t have a single tiny need for any flying ships with glowing moonstone eyes that could swallow an ocean. I don’t want any blue flashing gadget cream screens with secret codes for my birthday, or flashing laser face screens or tongue recognition software. (I want to flash my tongue on the soft landscape.) I have no craving for a jet big as a blinking planet. I have no lust for wheels that retract or blades that boomerang back to a holster or zapping metal arms that can take down a barricade or headphones that collapse into a small bronze bullet case. I don’t want a heavy shield with a circled star: I am not so afraid, really, to die.
What scares me: anti-depressant run-off in the creek; estrogen pill run-off in the pond. A lack of nuance in stories; a surplus of lazy thinking in the media. Someone undermining, on purpose, my child’s confidence. This life of machines, where you and I aren’t given enough hours to be animals together.
Seriously. I don’t want a many-bridged matrix structure of brushed steel with wall-sized electronic maps of global villainry and loaded shaft guns and swaths of plate glass perpetually shattering and encrypted light-up thumb drives and little red digital target marks on absolutely everything. With the terrible destruction vehicle bursting through the side of the office tower. (A comic book nightmare that came true, remember? Ash and shards and falling bodies, a city smoking in the distance, just like in the movie. This was not a movie.)
This is not a movie, and when I think about you fucking me, I am not thinking of the Millennium Falcon. I am not thinking, This government protects us from vulnerability and surveillance, and this government surveys us, and this government made us vulnerable in this way. I am not thinking, How can I stay safe? When we are fucking, I am not trying to protect myself. In fact, I am trying to not protect myself.
I do not want you juiced with serum so you can save the world. I do not want you juiced at all.
Fanboy, lie down and crawl back into your fur. Give up your need for toys. Be a bear cub again.