If the soul and the ego were objects we could look at, the soul would be a translucent heart beating.
—
George Condo
Owl with Monobrow by Stacy Szymaszek
- Lydia Ourahmane by Ben Blackmore
- Hank Willis Thomas and Kambui Olujimi
- Summer Wheat by Tina Kukielski
- Barbara Hammer by Corina Copp
- Kaneza Schaal by Christopher Myers
- Nina Hoss by Nicholas Elliott
- LaToya Ruby Frazier and Fred Moten by Dawn Lundy Martin
- Joseph Keckler by Olivia Laing
- Sergio De La Pava by Veronica Scott Esposito
Interviews
- David Behrman’s Music With Memory by Clinton Krute
- Sheila Heti’s Motherhood by Monica Uszerowicz
- Manuel DeLanda: ISM ISM by Jon Dieringer
- Joshua Bonnetta & J.P. Sniadecki’s El Mar La Mar by Matt Turner
- Ellie Ga’s Square Octagon Circle by Emmy Catedral
- Lynne Tillman’s Men and Apparitions by Michael Valinsky
Editor's Choice
- Portfolio by Ville Kumpulainen
- Messenger by Simone White
- Remainders by Valerie Werder
- Owl with Monobrow by Stacy Szymaszek
- A Small Sheaf from Sham Refugia by Mark Francis Johnson
- Fleeced by Joanna Goldberg
- Three Letters by Remedios Varo
- Archives of the Crystal Museum by Sammy Stein
- Embouchure, 1970 by Dylan Landis
First Proof
- End Page by Jordan Seiler
End Page
if the conditions for learning aren’t humiliation
then I must be alone in order to be a modern
kind of student one whose failures have not made them
so anxious they are unable to be a steady archer
this lesson explains my imperfections as a friend
of love I will die with not an ounce of blame
excepting a concept of Jesus’s naturalistic gaping
wounds as if we were all just moving targets Venus backspins
today offering lessons in structured movement when
walking on charnel ground all the thought crimes I’ve
committed bundled in the mind cannot reverse
the waste that worldwide haste has made what of the fact
that as a child my father put a bow in my hands
and had me shoot at bales of hay beheld my good shot
but I felt too guilty to use my skills in my own defense
when others were defenseless and I indefensible it is ancient
this view of wanting to teach someone how to love you which
suggests that you expect the other person to (now sacrilege)
change and I do—for my love demon is an OWL
nocturnally enlarging the iris distinct was its beautiful
inverted ogee the continuous eyebrow we stared at each other
while in an aluminum bed with a braided belt on the
nightstand my dreams then became storied and choreographed
to compensate for unspeakable athleticism for instance once upon
a time I was walking through the woods wearing a silver chest
plate I drew a makeshift star above my heart with white grease
pencil the owl’s beak started moving oh to tear into me
but no it said repeat after me ye shall not cut yourself
nor make any baldness between your eyes not even for the dead
Stacy Szymaszek’s most recent volume of poetry is Journal of Ugly Sites and Other Journals, which won the Ottoline Prize from Fence Books and was nominated for a Lambda Literary Award. Another journal book, A Year From Today, is forthcoming in 2018 from Nightboat Books. She is the executive director of The Poetry Project at St. Mark’s Church in New York.
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As an Indigenous poet, Belcourt is creating space for himself and his community in “a world we did not want, a world that we did not build for ourselves.”
All the experts say I’m sane.
Some even say I might acquire insight someday.
Increasingly, poems reach me physically, testing my physical and emotional boundaries—looking for places they might get inside, frequencies at which I might hear, poking at sensuous dead zones.
Originally published in
BOMB 143,
Spring 2018
Featuring interviews with LaToya Ruby Frazier and Fred Moten, Sergio De La Pava, Nina Hoss, Barbara Hammer, Joseph Keckler, Lydia Ourahmane, Kaneza Schaal, Hank Willis Thomas and Kambui Olujimi, and Summer Wheat.
